It's been about nine months since I last posted. I have no deep insight on life...well of course I do but no mind for it at the moment. Life goes on no matter how hard you pull on the emergency breakk but if you enjoy what is passing you by the reason you want to pull on the emergency break in the first place doesn't seem so urgent.
Life without my father is still hard. Not painful hard just missing him hard. I find myself sometimes thinking about times we spent together and just...reminiscing. They'rfe happy moments but...I can't exactly explain it. FOND memories. Does fond meen happy memories that make you feel slightly sad. Sad still doesn't seem to be the correct word. It's the feeling that makes you stare into space with a far away look and a slight smile when remembering those you love.
I send my stepmother a letter shortly after letting her know that I was still here. That even though my father is gone we  are still family. She called me crying. My brother is growing so fast and though this may seem strange, my stepmother is young. I really hope she finds someoone to spend time with. I do mean romantically. She spent so many years at my fathers vigil and basically took the blunt of his illness, she truly deserves to be happy.
Life for me is...ongoing. Work, got promoted. Home, still shopping, maybe soon. Son, getting so big. I can't believe that he's already spent with me over 50% of the time he's expected to be with me. Ten years have gone by so quickly I'm afraid I'll miss the next 8. He's a bright, handsome and very well behaved young boy.
Anyway, like the commercial says-life comes at you fast...now stop fighting with that emergency break and enjoy the ride while you work on those troublesome parts, take a few breaks to indulge in what's truly immportant and don't forget to top it off with icecream.